Intertwined emotions

/Pleasure turns to the pain,

/ Of the lessons learned from the strain,

/ of the questions burned in my brain,

/ About whether to love is humane

/ In its touch.

 / These thoughts are like salmon

/ Swimming upstream

 / In the tears of your deceit,

 / Fighting the current hurt

/ That kills more than is created

/ By the chaos of our intertwined emotions:

 / Chaotic because the anchor

 / Of Eros' arrow has been plucked from the vessel

 / Of my undying infatuation.

 / Separation not as simple as the distance between us,

 / My mind no longer possessed

/ By the demons

 / That had been the overseers

 / Of my enslavement to your lies.

 / The seeds of these lies,

 / Rooted so deeply

/ They have cracked the foundation

/ Of what we once shared,

/ Allowing the faith in us I had sealed inside

/ To gush out like a river,

                                                                               

 / Ripping the image of our future together

 / From my thoughts

 / As violently and as brutally

 / As if it were a child being taken

/ From his mother's arms.

/ I'm left surrounded in darkness,

 / But I refuse to be swallowed by it,

/ My loneliness like the night air.

/ Invisible to the eye, oblivious to the touch,

 / In its cold comfortableness.

/ Yet if I could do it all over again,

 / I'd do it in the same skin I'm in.

 / To lay down and let love die,

/ Just stay down and let love lie:

/ No, no, not I.

 / I'll stay 'round and let love fly,

/ Even though I have seen its darkest form, deceit.

/ Nothing else could taste this warm

/ Or feel this sweet.